StopHow am I supposed to get over it if you keep calling me? Is this your sick little plan - calling every couple of days just when I'm starting to recover from your last call? Ripping off the scab and making me bleed all over again? Dsangling me from a string around your finger and watching me twist in the wind? I can't do this anymore. Do you have any idea how long it takes me to bounce back after I talk to you? Do you even care? Do you know how hard it was for me to let you go? I shouldn't answer the phone. Sometimes I don't, but then you call every hour or so until I do. Then again, not talking to you is worse. Not talking to you at all might destroy me. Seriously destroy me. It doesn't even matter what you say when you call. Hearing your voice and listening to you breath somehow makes the screaming stop in my head. You ask about my day like you're really interested, you pay attention to what I have to say for once then you ruin it all like you always do. Trying to prove that you don't need me. No one has ever made me hurt this much. I'm through asking why don't you love me. I'm past that now. I have new questions. Why can't you stop fanning the flames and just let it die? What do I have to do to make you understand? Talking to you doesn't work. Writing it down for you doesn't work. If I tell you that I can't be friends with you and that you need to stop calling me, would you listen or would it only make things worse? Why won't you leave me to my misery? posted by Beth 5:55 PM . . .
